Monday, May 24, 2010

Another Call

This is going to end up being so hard.  It's already hard.  I can tell you right now that I'm going to need to be prayed up every minute in order to have the wisdom and discernment we need in order to know which child to take.

I can't help but think of these kids they called about tonight.  I heard the one year old little girl in the background crying for her daddy.  I'm in tears right now just thinking about it!  I wanted to go grab that child and just rock her to sleep.  And her 3 year old big brother too.  They cannot help what's going on with their parents or what they may have seen already in their little lives.  I just think about Porter and how scared he would be if he was taken from our home.  He would be crying for me and for his daddy.  He would be so confused as to why he wasn't in his house, in his bed.

There are so many things going through my mind right now.  Way too many and way to fast for me to even get them out.  I'm so very thankful that the Holy Spirit can understand my thoughts and my groanings because I can't get many of these things into words.  I'm just so broken for these kids.

God, meet their needs tonight.  Bring them someone that will take care of them tonight and love on them.  Give wisdom to the caseworkers and those trying to place these kids.  They have such a hard job - give them patience and love for these kids.

Friday, May 14, 2010

Our First Call

We just got our first call tonight for a little boy, but we had to say no. That was excrutiating. It's a very real thing now that there are kids right now that are being taken from their homes. And I can't help but wonder what that little boy is going through tonight. I wonder if he's scared. I wonder if he'll be able to sleep. I wonder if the family that's caring for him will take good care of him and hold him when he cries.  My heart is just aching tonight... But I know God has got just the right child for us - and we'll be able to make a difference...

Monday, May 10, 2010

Open For Business

After the busiest week in all of creation, we found out today that we are officially open as a foster home.

That's a very exciting and a very scary thing!  If I knew who I was getting, I could feel a little more prepared.  But we don't know.  And we don't know how long we'll get to keep this first kid, if and when we get them.

We're also going to have an adoption home study done.  Not sure when that will take place, but should be soon.  That way if there are any kids that meet our criteria anywhere in AR, we can have an option to adopt them.  Right now, we're limited to the kids in the four northwestern counties in AR.

We're praying for wisdom and discernment.  I'm praying for an open heart for whoever comes into my home - and at the same time praying for open hands if I'm called to give them back to their bio parents.

This process is not for the faint of heart.... and we're just beginning.....